Saturday, May 23, 2020

This Memorial Day

Sorry so long, but bear with me. My health has really gone downhill. . .especially within the last 5-6 years. I have been diagnosed with migraines, restless leg syndrome, sleep apnea, Sjogrens, insomnia, hypothyroidism, depression, anxiety, tachycardia, kidney stones, chronic fatigue, Raynaud's, insulin resistance, biliary dyskinesia, leaky mitral valve. . .to name a few. Drs have just thrown more meds at me and then I don't know what is a symptom and what is a med side effect. I have been searching for an underlying issue for years that has possibly caused or contributed to all of these. The problem is that one specialist doesn't care about your other issues. . .even if they could be related.
I started seeing a new primary care doctor last year and she is phenomenal! She ran some tests and found that my progesterone is extremely low and probably has been for many, many years. This can cause migraines, insomnia, inflammation and problems with your thyroid and gallbladder. It can even lead to autoimmune issues. When estrogen is unbalanced with progesterone, you develop estrogen dominance which can cause weight gain, fatigue, restless legs, etc. My body also does a poor job of clearing estrogen and testosterone causing them to build up and become toxic. With chronic stress, your body starts making cortisol in place of progesterone. I recently started on bioidentical progesterone and I feel like a new person. It has been a miracle for me and within weeks I lost almost 8 lbs. I'm optimistic that I will continue to feel better as time goes on.
So, why am I telling you this?? Two reasons. . . 1) This info might help someone else and end years of your struggling with multiple health issues. 2) This info has answered a question that I have asked for 12+ years . . . Why did I give birth at 23 weeks? With my first pregnancy, we did fertility treatments and each cycle they always started you on progesterone and if you didn't get pregnant, you would stop it. If you did, you would continue the progesterone. It is needed to help maintain a pregnancy. When I was around 18 weeks pregnant with twins, my OBGYN told me to stop the progesterone. I questioned it and asked if I needed to make sure my levels were okay first. He said something about how progesterone is no longer produced in the ovaries and production is taken over by the placenta. So I stopped it. A few weeks later, I began to bleed and. . .well, you know the rest. They always believed the cause of my premature labor was most likely an incompetent cervix, although they said with that, most people miscarry by 16 weeks. How did I go to 23 weeks. . . with twins? Well, lack of progesterone causes the cervix to shorten and the pregnancy cannot be maintained. If I had stayed on the progesterone. . . . . .Olivia most likely wouldn't have to deal with the effects of her early birth and I would still have my son. That is a tough one to swallow.
I suspicioned that progesterone may have been a problem when I surprisingly got pregnant in 2011. I wasn't on progesterone because I didn't do fertility treatments and I miscarried at 8 weeks. So, the next year when I found out I was again pregnant (with Abigail) I called my dr and demanded to be started on progesterone that day. I later switched to progesterone shots for the rest of the pregnancy and made it to 35 weeks. Knowing what I know now. . . I am pretty certain that progesterone made all the difference and it NEVER should have been stopped mid pregnancy. I know I couldn't have been expected to know that, but I strongly feel my doctor should have. I knew that progesterone was a problem in my pregnancies, but I didn't realize that I had most likely been chronically deficient for years.
This Memorial Day, I remember my son, Logan. It is hard to think that something as simple as taking progesterone could have prolonged my pregnancy and saved his life. But, as Olivia reminded me. . . It is truly not what caused them to come early. It was simply a part of God's plan. I don't really have to understand or know why. I just have to trust that everything goes along with God's perfect timing. And I trust His plan for my life and not my own. I am also reminded how blessed I am to have Olivia and Abigail. Thank you to my friends and family for reading my entirely too long post and for all the love and support you have shown me through the years.

Friday, May 22, 2020

New Family Pictures

Thank you to Samantha Barnett Photography!

Sunday, March 22, 2020

Spring Update

Wow, it has been months and months since I posted.  Life gets so busy.  With this coronavirus quarantine, I think it has given everyone a chance to slow down a bit.  It is hard because with that, I have also lost many hours at work. I work at a preschool and it has been closed for the rest of the school year.  That is both sad and scary at the same time, but I have loved the extra time with my kids.  So, I thought I would give an update on how they are doing.

They both got Nintendo Switch Lites for Christmas so they can be seen playing Mario Kart at least once per day.  I remember playing that with them when they were little and going easy on them.  

Now they beat me pretty bad.  I think they have even beat their dad a few times.  They are good!!


She is doing well and is in 6th grade this year.  Olivia still plays piano and flute in band at school.

I think she may be taller than me in about a year.  Ha.  She's still on growth hormone injections every day for gastroparesis, which is really an awful thing.  It causes her nausea almost every day.  She has loved school this year and was not all that happy that she won't be going back to her school to finish out the year. Thanks coronavirus.  Olivia found her best friend, Miriam, last year in 5th grade and they are in classes together this year as well.  They also play the flute together.

Olivia and Miriam

She still has, of course, her kitty, Kelsey, and loves cats.  She also added her hamster, Luke, this year.  Super sweet hamster, but drives her crazy at night with his incessant chewing.


Luke (isn't he cute?)

I am always so super proud of the sweet, loving and caring person she is.  Just amazing.


She is doing well also.  She has struggled a bit with anxiety in school.  Abigail is very much a perfectionist and cares deeply about what everyone thinks of her.  She, however, is a stellar student and sets high expectations for the rest of the class.  Sometimes she resents those expectations.  She is super smart and met her end of year benchmarks by October.  She can also somehow pull off making sunglasses with the lenses popped out look cute.

She also got a hamster this past year.  Well, first she got a hamster named Boston and he sadly passed away within a week of bringing him home from wet tail.  It was so sad and just broke her heart. After a few months, she decided to try again and we got Lollipop.  Lollipop Fancypants.  She is a super sweet, social hamster. . .a great pet for a kid.  I've even become attached to both of the hamsters.



Abigail is going to try out softball this year.  She is very athletic so I think she will do well with whatever she wants to do.  So, we will give this a shot and see what she thinks of it.  I'm hoping that it doesn't get cancelled along with everything else. Abigail is so amazing.  I know I'm probably biased, but I do think my girls are the best human beings in the world.  Smart, kind, funny, beautiful inside and out.  I hope they someday see themselves through my eyes.  U

Anyway, so tell me how the coronavirus has affected you in your neck of the woods.  How has it changed your daily life?? And are you able to find toilet paper????

Wednesday, November 13, 2019

Leaf Party

Saturday, October 12, 2019

Perfect Job

This summer, I was blessed with an amazing job opportunity.  I accepted a job as the administrative assistant at Kidslink Preschool at our church, Pathway Church.  It is truly an answer to prayer and is everything I could want in a job.  Flexibility, part time, creativity, Christian environment, etc.  I even get to design calendars and print outs for all of the preschool teachers!  If I could describe the perfect job, it would be hard not to describe this.  It is one example of me letting go and letting God lead and I love where I'm headed. 

Thursday, September 19, 2019

Catching Up

6th Grade School Picture

12th Birthday Party 

Wednesday, July 17, 2019


Can you believe that Olivia got braces yesterday?  Who would have thought when I started this blog that I would one day be talking about Olivia in braces.  She looks so grown up.  So far, she really despises them and walks around mumbling, " I want these monsters OFF."  I'm hoping it is better in a few days.