Saturday, May 12, 2012

To Those Who Have Lost A Child

This Mother’s Day, I honor YOU.  Dedicated to all those suffering through infertility and who know the pain of miscarriage.  My heart reaches out to those who have lost a child.  I’ve been truly blessed to meet so many people who have walked in my shoes.  God bless every one of you. 

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

Author Unknown

Friday, May 11, 2012

Friday, May 11, 2012

Yesterday, Olivia learned to swing on her tummy and that’s all she’s been doing for the past two days.  In fact, she even pulled one over on me yesterday.  I told her we could swing a bit before preschool, but the fun didn’t last long enough and she was upset about going to school.  Then, in the car she starts sobbing, “I’m so tired, I need a nap.  . .please let me just take a nap.  I can’t go to school.  I’m too tired!” She rarely says she doesn’t want to go to school and on even rarer occasions does she ask to take a nap.  I really started thinking maybe she didn’t feel good.  So, I didn’t have her go to school.  When we pulled into our driveway she said, “Maybe instead of taking a nap I could swing?”  No no no.  She went back to her room and took a nap.  She slept for 2 hours and then she was ready to swing and at THAT time I let her.  She’s getting sneaky, I tell ya. 

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And this morning she had to swing with a stocking cap on.  Yep, it was 70+ degrees out, but apparently it went with her outfit?!? LOL!                                                                                                                 

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Introducing. . .

We are proud to introduce to you. . .


the newest member of our family!

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Our baby is doing great so far (although I don’t advise getting a kidney stone while pregnant.)  My due date is exactly what it was 5 years ago with Olivia and Logan and I even found out on the exact day as well.  Only God could provide that kind of timing.  Because I had a classical (vertical) c-section with Logan, I will have another c-section and they won’t allow me to go full term for fear of uterine rupture.  So, we’re hoping to at least make it to Thanksgiving.  I have a long road ahead of me starting with a cerclage (stitching the cervix shut) next month.  We also have my diabetes to contend with which may need to be controlled by insulin.  Please please keep me, this baby and my family in your prayers.  I’m hopeful, but cautious. . .and a tad bit terrified.  Olivia is looking so forward to being a big sister and has already told me all of the things that she is going to teach the baby.  She insists it is a sister, but has come up with names for both.  If it’s a boy, for instance, she would like his name to be Curtain.  LOL!  We are praying for a very smooth, uneventful pregnancy and I can’t wait for you all to take this journey with me. 

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Today in the car, Olivia was explaining to me that she was missing her Hello Kitty, her mouse and her chipmunk.

“If I found my Hello Kitty, I would only be missing two things. . .my mouse and my chipmunk.  If I also found my mouse, I would be missing only one thing.  And if I also found my chipmunk, I wouldn’t be missing anything and I would be sooo happy.”

So, I’m kinda proud that my daughter has already mastered simple subtraction.  LOL!