Harrison misses Bailey quite a bit.
Lately I've been giving my nasolacrimal ducts a work-out. Have you ever wondered why your nose always runs when you cry? Your tears drain down to the back of your nose. It makes sense because Olivia has never once had a runny nose. I worry so much about her sometimes.
I was doing better about Bailey until I cut the pigs' green bell pepper into six slices instead of five. Harrison doesn't know what to do with himself and just sits and stares into space. He has had numerous ear infections throughout his life and it seems his ear is bothering him again. So, we started him on ear drops twice a day. One of my rats is still on antibiotic for her eyes. Things are tough around our house right now. I bought a new laptop a few weeks ago. I had Christmas/birthday money and I didn't know what to spend it on. Since I'm on the computer all of the time, I thought a laptop would be nice. It's been nothing but a pain. I don't know what the problem is, but it seems to stem from Microsoft Vista. All of my transactions that I had entered into Microsoft Money (which I rely on immensely) didn't save. I'm about ready to have Ryan install XP on it. Poor Ryan has had to spend hours dealing with various problems on it. Everything just seems to be breaking around our house.
We have ants coming into Olivia's room. I'm afraid to spray inside the house because I don't trust any kind of spray near Olivia. I think I found the culprit. I guess ants are attracted to peonies and we have one right outside Olivia's room. There are like a thousand ants on it. Our peony is about the only flower in our flower garden. Most years, I plant a lot of pretty flowers, but this year I don't have the time, money, or desire to plant flowers. I don't want to be digging around in the dirt and then handling Olivia. . .plus, she wouldn't like to just sit outside without me holding her or pushing her in a stroller. I just don't want to do much other than spend time with Olivia and Ryan. I try to let Ryan have time to himself during the weekend, but it seems I always have things he has to do (like fix my computer.) I have flowers to put out on Logan's grave, but it seems I never have time to get out there. I feel so guilty about that. Things are just tough around our house right now. Ryan and I just need a break. . .not from our sweet Olivia, but from life in general. It hasn't been too good to us lately.
So sorry for my negative mood, but I've always been honest in what I write and I try to continue to do so. The past 8 months have just really worn us down. And, it's just been a bummer of a week. I promise my posts will become more positive in the future.