Saturday, May 3, 2008

Sunday, May 4, 2008 - Update

Harrison misses Bailey quite a bit.
Olivia is sometimes the only thing that makes us smile.

Lately I've been giving my nasolacrimal ducts a work-out. Have you ever wondered why your nose always runs when you cry? Your tears drain down to the back of your nose. It makes sense because Olivia has never once had a runny nose. I worry so much about her sometimes.

I was doing better about Bailey until I cut the pigs' green bell pepper into six slices instead of five. Harrison doesn't know what to do with himself and just sits and stares into space. He has had numerous ear infections throughout his life and it seems his ear is bothering him again. So, we started him on ear drops twice a day. One of my rats is still on antibiotic for her eyes. Things are tough around our house right now. I bought a new laptop a few weeks ago. I had Christmas/birthday money and I didn't know what to spend it on. Since I'm on the computer all of the time, I thought a laptop would be nice. It's been nothing but a pain. I don't know what the problem is, but it seems to stem from Microsoft Vista. All of my transactions that I had entered into Microsoft Money (which I rely on immensely) didn't save. I'm about ready to have Ryan install XP on it. Poor Ryan has had to spend hours dealing with various problems on it. Everything just seems to be breaking around our house.

We have ants coming into Olivia's room. I'm afraid to spray inside the house because I don't trust any kind of spray near Olivia. I think I found the culprit. I guess ants are attracted to peonies and we have one right outside Olivia's room. There are like a thousand ants on it. Our peony is about the only flower in our flower garden. Most years, I plant a lot of pretty flowers, but this year I don't have the time, money, or desire to plant flowers. I don't want to be digging around in the dirt and then handling Olivia. . .plus, she wouldn't like to just sit outside without me holding her or pushing her in a stroller. I just don't want to do much other than spend time with Olivia and Ryan. I try to let Ryan have time to himself during the weekend, but it seems I always have things he has to do (like fix my computer.) I have flowers to put out on Logan's grave, but it seems I never have time to get out there. I feel so guilty about that. Things are just tough around our house right now. Ryan and I just need a break. . .not from our sweet Olivia, but from life in general. It hasn't been too good to us lately.

So sorry for my negative mood, but I've always been honest in what I write and I try to continue to do so. The past 8 months have just really worn us down. And, it's just been a bummer of a week. I promise my posts will become more positive in the future.


Amanda said...

Yes, I know for SURE that peonies attract ants... and the thing is too that if you pull them and aggravate the dirt there will be more ants come in... (just a heads up) I had that problem at our house one year... but it did seem to clear up everything just by putting "ant powder" around the outside of the house... it looks kinda silly, but it works!... I pray that things start looking up for you guys!.. and yeah.. VISTA

Kim said...

We are having problems with ants too. Even upstairs! We bought a spray at Lowe's that is supposed to work really well for ants. It is one that you just have to hook your hose up to and spray. I will let you know if it works.

Sarah said...

You don't have to be positive. I like that you are real.

As far as the ants, you can buy the caro syrup with borax (Not sure of the name but you can find it in lawn&garden at any store) and put it outside the house. The ants will be attracted to that rather than coming into the house. I had to do that at my old house.

I also know that after you've been home with your baby for a few months it gets really hard before it gets better, but it does get better. You are still healing and it's okay to feel the way you do. I sometimes wonder how God was trying to change me through Emery's premature birth. I sure take a lot of time out each day now to appreciate him and everything around me. Anyway, you are better than fine and I promise you Olivia is beautiful and doing so well because of you and Ryan!

Anonymous said...

When we first moved to our home, we had an ant problem. I found that by sprinkling talcum powder around the perimeter of the house, between where they live and their point of entry, and also around the base boards in the house, vacuuming it up after a few days, we were able to keep them out of the house. Another thing that will get them out of your garden is planting mint. If you don't want to go to the trouble of planting mint, just buy some mint tea (bags or loose), and sprinkle in the garden where the ants live. Be careful using borax in the house, as you don't want sweet Livvy to get ahold of it.
good luck, Julie

Redheaded Mama said...

I found your blog through a friend's blog and wanted to share a trick for the ants. Cayenne pepper around the outside of the house, where they get in, acts as a barrier and will keep them out. The Borax and sugar syrup or corn syrup also works. Borax is nontoxic to humans and would be fairly safe to use around the baby. Also, by treating the outside of the house, around the foundation, you are keeping it out of the house anyway.