Saturday, February 26, 2011

So, I’ve finally decided to write a book about my experiences over the last 3.5 years.  What I’m going to do with the book. . .I don’t know.  It’s mainly a way for me to remember how I got to where I am today and why I’m the way that I am.  Losing a child changes you in ways that I’m only beginning to see.  Maybe it will also help others who are going through similar hardships.  That is my prayer. 

I have a title and am already well into chapter three and have been writing for over 4 hours tonight.  I’m using excerpts from my blog which has made me dive back into the fall of 2007.  That was such a difficult time.  It’s amazing the things that you remember and the things that you forget.  I’m so grateful to have so many things written down.  I (thankfully)remember little about vent settings and oxygen requirements and the day to day NICU life.  I am currently in the middle of writing about the night Logan died and am flooded with emotion.  Please don’t ever forget about my son.  Hopefully, this book will be a way to remember him as well.  Let’s just hope that for the first time in my adult life, I actually finish writing a book. 

School Picture

Not only did she smile, but she posed as well! 

Her conferences tonight went well. . .Olivia is doing very well with school.  We received an interesting tidbit of information that we were unaware of.  She can go to preschool anywhere on this side of town and her therapists will go there to work with her.  Currently, she is in the special education preschool in our school district.  I am happy with her progress so far this year.  I think we will probably go ahead and keep her there, although if any of you know of a great west side preschool, I’d love to hear from you.  I’m concerned that many have already had fall enrollment.  Anyway, she’s doing great and has definitely learned the ropes of preschool.  So proud! 

Trip to Arkansas

Katie, Olivia and Kaleb

Katie and Olivia

Katie

Aidan

Kaleb

The Snyders

Alex

Katie and Aidan

Alex and Olivia

Olivia and Katie

Riding on the trolley

She didn’t have quite enough weight on her to ring the trolley bell. LOL.

*Many thanks to Kim for providing these pictures. 

My Beautiful Olivia Paige

Well, Olivia and I got home from our trip to Arkansas this evening.  (And found that Ryan had painted the hallway along with some other surprises.) We had a wonderful time and I have many pictures to share.  It may take me awhile to go through them all.  This picture, however, is one of my favorites!  I thought you might be missing Olivia’s smiling face.  Enjoy!