Just having one of those really hard days. Abigail started sleeping through the night at 3 months, but for the past week she has had me up every few hours. I'm sure that has added to my crankiness as I spent the whole morning yelling at Olivia. That makes me feel awful, but somedays getting her to get dressed and eat is impossible. Olivia actually weighs less than she did when she turned 5. I take it personal. . .like I'm not keeping her healthy. Now I'm waiting to take Abigail for her 4 month checkup which means more shots and a cranky baby. I've been struggling with my blood sugars again. Last night they were at an all-time high. I stopped my insulin when I gave birth and while nursing, my blood sugars have been great (another benefit of nursing.) I've been weaning her as she ONLY wants to nurse in the middle of the night and morning. I bottle feed her the rest of the time and pump during the day. But now I have to officially quit nursing so that I can get back on Metformin to control my blood sugars. It's either that or continue nursing and go back on insulin. I keep telling myself that I need to take care of myself, ya know? I'm just frustrated with myself. My lack of milk supply frustrates me, my blood sugars frustrate me, my inability to start an exercise program and stick to it frustrates me. Thanks. Just needed to vent. :-(