Sunday, August 28, 2011

Yesterday, Olivia sent Logan a birthday balloon.  It has become tradition to do it every year on their birthday.  We don’t really talk about Logan in our family as much as we should or as much as we’d like.  I don’t know why. . .we just get busy with life.  He’s never far from my mind, however.   Sometimes I don’t think he’s far from Olivia’s mind either.  Yesterday, Olivia looked at me and said, “Logan loves me today.”  I don’t think Olivia has fully grasped who Logan is, but she definitely knows he’s very special to our family.  Today, she fell asleep in the car and upon waking she asked, “Where’s Logan?”  It’s as if she knows far more than I believe she does.  As she gets older, I am anxious to hear about her perspective. . .losing her twin brother and what that is like for her.  It breaks my heart because at some point in her life she is going to fully comprehend the magnitude of everything that happened and it’s going to break her heart.  I’m sure Olivia’s birthday party was nothing compared to Logan’s party in heaven.  Oh, how I miss him and love him and wish he was here.