FAC

A few weeks ago, I decided to join the neonatal FAC (family advisory council) at the hospital where Olivia and Logan were born.  I went to the first meeting and everything was fine until we went to tour the recently remodeled parent resource room.  I had no idea that I’d be walking into the room that I held Logan in the night that he died.  I was flooded with emotion and felt that I had made zero progress in the past 4+ years.  After much soul searching and prayer, I realized that I just could not regularly visit the NICU again or return to that room.  I talked to the head of the FAC about my feelings and she tried to think of other ways that I could help.  She then offered me my own column in their newsletter.  Hopefully, I’ll be able to think of what to say and ways to help parents currently going through the NICU.  I just have to think of the title of my column.  Any ideas??  Please leave your ideas in the comments section!  Also, Olivia will be featured on their Wall of Hope.  Hopefully, we’ll be able to bring hope to those in the NICU and with time, maybe I can venture back into that world to help others.  For now, I’m just going to have to do it from afar.