Thursday, November 15, 2007

Thursday, November 15, 2007 - Update

I’m writing the update early again today. I’m unsure what to report on Olivia. This morning she was doing fantastic and had not had any As or Bs. They even had her off of the nasal cannula for about an hour and she did very well. At 9 am they switched her to 30 minute feeds every 3 hours and she did fantastic. She did well for her next feeding at noon. As you know, she had her eye exam today and I guess that was the last thing in the world that she wanted to do today. She screamed and cried and they had to use a speculum to keep her eyes open. Ever since the exam, she has been having problems with her saturation. I don’t know if she’s responding to the feeding change or if she just really hated the exam. We’ll see how she’s doing later today when we go up to see her. We don’t have the official eye exam report, but it seems that she is still at a stage 1 zone 2. It has spread, however, within zone 2. I believe that’s still pretty good news, but I’m not sure.

I had a really rough night last night. Is it ever going to get easier? I started thinking back to when I was pregnant and when I went in for my ultrasounds. I cannot look at the ultrasound pictures. . .that is one of the very hardest things for me to do. I just remember looking at them when I was pregnant and so full of hope. I had so many dreams for my family. This isn’t the way things were supposed to be. Logan should still be here. Olivia should not have to be fighting so hard. Some days are just so very difficult.


Hagen and Mason said...

Psalm 34:18
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Psalm 27:13-14
I would have dispaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; yes, wait for the Lord.

I will be praying for you.

Anonymous said...

I know Jodi. But, the person you are will not let it get worse. You keep a positive attitude for you and your daughter.
Think of you often.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad to hear that Livi was able to come off of that pesky nasual canula. It sounded like she had had a pretty good day, until she had to go get her eyes checked. Poor little thing, bless her heart. I hope that the results come back in your favor.
Jodi, just as a mother giraffe cares for its calf, you care for your little girl. If another animal were to get too close to a baby calf, the mother giraffe would kick, to scare it away. As do you, with the exception of not kicking. But, you know what I mean. You and Ryan do whatever you can to keep your little Livi safe.
Keep it Up!
Love you all so much and think about you constantly!!!
Stay Strong,

abby said...

I know exactly what you mean about the ultrasound pictures. They are still on my computer, and I am of course grateful to have them, but I cannot look at them because the girls seemed so safe and sound and happy inside. And even with Hallie doing relatively well and all, it doesn't make up for the missing piece in our life. I wish I could say it gets easier, but it just gets more familiar.

I am hoping that all is well with Miss Olivia and that she is just having a negative response to the eye exam. For what it is worth, Hallie always responded that way, too.

Shannon said...

Ashton used to have issues everytime that he had the eye drops put in with his oxygen levels...maybe it could be that? We had to start doing half dose eye drops.