A pregnancy after giving birth at 23 weeks has to rank up there with one of the most stressful experiences of all time. Every day, I feel like I’m living in fear. I can simply vacuum my house and be overcome with guilt and wonder if I’ve threatened my baby’s life. I don’t know what normal is. Even things that may have been normal the first time, I view as abnormal considering my extremely premature labor.
Sunday night, I experienced severe back pain/cramping. It felt like I was going into labor, but only on my right side and it was constant. I talked to the nurse on call and she had me drink a lot of water, lay down and take a Benadryl. It got me through the night and helped me avoid a trip to the ER. I got in to see my OB on Monday morning and he had no explanation. My cervix was still closed. My cramping has since improved after a day of bed rest, but I still wish I knew what caused it. I had my P17 shot just an hour prior on the same side that the cramping started. Has anyone experienced that as a side effect? Or, it could have been another kidney stone giving me problems. It terrifies me because back pain is what started a few weeks before I gave birth at 23 weeks. But, I pray and pray for peace. I remind myself that this baby is in God’s hands to live for HIS purpose and not my own.
+copy.jpg)
No comments:
Post a Comment