Monday, November 17, 2008

Monday, November 17, 2008 - Update

This is my new walker.
I'm fascinated by the toy tray.
I could play with this all day.

Well, her walker came last week. We cleared it with our PT before we purchased it and like anything. . .moderation is the key. Olivia is still a bit too short on the lowest setting to make it move. It's also hard to move on carpet. She likes to stand in it, however. She does enjoy making all of the sounds and playing the music. I'm sure it's good to continue practicing to bear weight on her legs. And, it's nice that she can stand while I run into the other room without fear that she'll fall down. There are two things that I said I would never buy my child. . .a jumperoo and a walker. Olivia has both. Oh well. I still don't regret the jumperoo as she loves it and it has really helped her grab on to things.

The weather was beautiful yesterday, so the three of us made a short trip to the zoo. It was totally worth it to see the male lion stand up on his rock and roar. You know, I don't know that I have ever watched a lion roar in real life. Plus, the mother lion and cubs were on the ground below him. It was a pretty magnificent sight and well worth the trip. I just wish I had remembered my camera.


Angie C said...

I have a picture on my facebook page of the lion on his rock roaring- he did that when we were there a few weeks ago for the first time for me to see. He must be in some sort of mood this fall haha!

Anonymous said...

Our walker has two distinct settings, but it can actually be set at other levels as well. You might try it out. It took me a bit to figure ours out.

Amanda said...

O' the zoo... :) lol... glad YOU have nice weather... here, its snowed all day! Which, I dont really care, I love snow... and then tonight we put up all our Christmas decor at I am totally pumped to put up my tree! Christmas is my favorite time of year!!!

Anonymous said...

Just saw this on a website and thought of you... sorry so long - love Neva

1. I wish my baby hadn't died. I wish I had him back.

2. I wish you wouldn't be afraid to speak my baby's name. My baby lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that he was important to you also.

3. If I cry and get emotional when you talk about my baby, I wish you knew it isn't because you have hurt me. My baby's death is the cause of my tears. You have talked about my baby, and you have allowed me to share my grief.
I thank you for both

4. Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't shy away from me. I need you now more than ever.

5. I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you; but I also want you to hear about me. I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you would let me talk about my baby, my favorite topic of the day.

6. I know you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my baby's death pains you too. I wish you would let me know those things through a phone call, a card or note, or a real big hug.

7. I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be over in six months. These first months are traumatic for me, but I wish you could understand that my grief will never be over. I will suffer the death of my baby until the day I die.

8. I am working very hard on my recovery, but I wish you could understand that I will never fully recover. I will always miss my baby, and I will always grieve that he is dead.

9. I wish you wouldn't expect me "not to think about it" or to "be happy." Neither will happen for a very long time, so don't frustrate yourself.

10. I don't want to have a "pity party," but I do wish you would let me grieve. I must hurt before I can heal.

11. I wish you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is miserable for you to be around me when I am feeling miserable. Please be as patient with me as I am with you.

12. When I say, "I'm doing okay, " I wish you could understand that I don't "feel" okay and that I struggle daily.

13. I wish you knew that all of the grief reactions I'm having are very normal. Depression, anger, frustration, hopelessness, and overwhelming sadness are all to be expected. So, please excuse me when I'm quiet and withdrawn or irritable and cranky.

14. Your advise to "take one day at a time" is excellent advice. However, a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you could understand that I'm doing good to handle an hour at a time.

15. Please excuse me if I seem rude, certainly it is not my intent. Sometimes the world around me goes too fast and I need to get off. When I walk away, I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone.

16. I wish you understood that grief changes people. When my baby died, a big part of me died with him. I am not the same person I was before my baby died, and will never be that person again.

17. I wish very much that you could understand-understand my loss and my grief, my silence and my tears, my void and my pain. BUT, I pray that you will never understand.