Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Tuesday, January 20, 2009 - Update

Me and my Aunt Laura
I like your necklace, Aunt Laura

We enjoyed spending the morning with Laura. Thanks for coming over. I've learned that my mood greatly improves when we 1) have visitors 2) get out of the house. Keeping Olivia healthy is a huge concern for me (RSV is starting to run rampant around here) but I can't completely give up my mental health for her physical health. There has to be some sort of common ground. I constantly worry about Olivia and, although that's typical for all parents, mine is a little extreme. Whenever I worry about something, I usually ask myself, "What is the worst that can happen?" It doesn't work in this case because I know one of the worst things that can happen. It happened to us when we lost our sweet Logan. We've been there and that will always leave such an uneasy feeling within me. I don't know if that will ever go away. All I can do is try to take steps to help myself and continue to pray for God to give me peace.


Anonymous said...

I hope you are able to have more visitors and enjoy getting out a bit. I do understand your fear of exposing Olivia. It was VERY hard for us to start being in public places in the winter and not freak out. Eventually we have gotten used to it, but I know it must be much harder for you having lost Logan.

A few things that helped us to get out (and to help me from going insane staying inside) were to go shopping in low-key not so busy stores in the mornings when no one was there. Maybe there is a small coffee shop or something you could go to in the morning to have a change of scenery.

I also told myself that I would be prepared for Charlie to touch or be touched by others but I had tons of those wipeys right on hand so that I could wash him down immediately after he touched something or someone touched him. (And of course, I tried to NOT let anyone near him :-)

We also made an effort to make sure an invite lots of friends and family over to our house so we could enjoy visiting but have it in our controlled environment.

Ok, enough for now. Just some ideas. I understand how you're going stir crazy! Let's hope spring comes early!

Shea said...

Olivia is always in my prayers and I will keep praying that she stays healthy these next couple weeks, months, whenever RSV season ends.