Thursday, June 25, 2009

Thursday, June 25, 2009 - Update

Riding "Frank" at grandma and grandpa's house


Yesterday, Olivia was doing a lot better. . .her fever was gone, but then last night she developed a rash. We're suspecting that it is roseola since it is usually diagnosed by a few days of a high fever followed by a rash. Yesterday, she was back to her normal, happy self, but today she is extremely cranky. I'm not sure if it is from her illness or her teeth. I don't know how many she is getting all at once, but her mouth looks like a war zone. Poor thing. All in all. . .it's been a rough week between her being sick, Ryan's back, my lack of sleep, this unrelenting heat, etc. I'm ready for the weekend.

As many of you know, I began going to a therapist a few weeks ago. She is starting something with me called eye movement desensitization and reprocessing. I guess that traumatic memories are stored differently and in a different part of the brain than other memories. They are sort of like an undigested clump of memories. This type of therapy helps to "digest" and process them more like other memories so that they are not so difficult to relive. I have an extremely difficult time with Logan's death. I also have a lot of trouble with the day that Logan and Olivia were born. Actually, I think the anniversary of Logan's death is easier on me than the day that they were born. The anniversary of his death is just sort of a day of mourning for our family and we allow ourselves to be sad on that day. The day of their birth is, well, Olivia's birthday. It's a happy day and I don't want her to grow up thinking of it as any other type of day. Hopefully, this will help me move forward with the memories of what we've been through. . .but, without the pain.

6 comments:

Just Breathe said...

I am so sorry for your pain. I believe your heading in the right direction in getting help.

You know my kids always had fevers when they cut their teeth. Poor baby, give her lots of hugs.

23 Weekers said...

Hey Jodi, you can get a rash with strep throat, too. It might be worth checking out. Is she eating good?

Kim said...

Her rash looked just like roseola. Usually irritability and loss of appetite goes along with it. Symptoms usually last about 7 to 10 days from the time that the fever starts. I hope that she feels better soon. She was a little bit cranky when we saw her today, but she still smiled great big when she was dancing, and when she was riding the horse.

I got a couple of pictures of her riding the horse at grandma's house. She was smiling really big until I took her picture. I'll e-mail them to you later.

Anonymous said...

WOW, DOES THAT HORSE BRING BACK MEMORIES! !! All my kids remember that horse. They all rode it at Grandma Kay Northrop's house. I am glad Olivia can have a chance to ride it. She will love it too.
Marty

Anonymous said...

Glad to hear therapy is still going... we will pray that it brings you some peace.

Anonymous said...

I hope the therapy helps. I am wishing the very best for you and your family!!!
Marilee