Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Wednesday, April 1, 2009 - Update

Yesterday, I had the rare opportunity to have the entire afternoon and most of the evening to myself. I went to the chiropractor, ran some errands and got my haircut. It's getting easier not to spend all of my time fretting over Olivia, but I still have a long ways to go. I still can't truly relax. I realized something. . .I don't think I have truly relaxed in 2 years. Then, I had the years of fertility treatments before that which are not too relaxing (despite the annoying "just relax" advice.) Even when it looks like I'm relaxing. . .my mind is going a mile a minute. Yes, Olivia has only had one single cold in her entire life, but it has been exhausting to keep it that way. When we are out in public, I listen for every cough and avoid that general area, I try to only go to places with automatic doors, I scrutinize every move that anyone makes. Honestly, I hate it. I want to feel carefree again. I want to go on a vacation, but most of all. . . I want to RELAX.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Well she is older now so you should relax. Just think, if you do have a 2nd baby, it will be impossible to keep that baby cold free. My third child has had RSV, bronchitis, viruses left right and centre not to mention never ending colds. I was also anxious with the first child about everything, but by the time numbeer 3 arrived I waas totally chilled out about the whole baby thing and she is a much better baby! You will find that by having more children (hopefully), you and your children will be having a much more fun filled life!
Wishing you all the luck in the world!