Sunday, November 18, 2007 - Update

Olivia continues to shine day after day. I can’t help but think that the NICU will be a little different place without Olivia there. Olivia even got a card and a Thanksgiving book from one of her favorite nurses. What a wonderful surprise! She enjoyed being read her new book tonight. Her move up to Special Care is getting closer and as this chapter of her life comes to a close, I can’t help but be a little sad. How weird is that? The place that I wish she never had to go to, that was so hard to visit. . . .is now a place that I’m going to miss. That’s an emotion that I didn’t see coming. , I’m so thankful because her move out of the NICU means that she is progressing wonderfully. It means that she’s one step closer to coming home. Sometimes I can almost hear Logan cheering her on.

We tried breastfeeding again tonight and she did wonderfully. She really seems to know what she’s doing! I still can’t imagine her taking her whole feeding that way, let alone a whole day’s worth, but I’m sure that will come. What a bonding experience with my precious daughter! I still feel a little bad that I’ve taken her away from her daddy time, though. Olivia has managed to go ALL DAY without a single apnea or bradycardia. She hasn’t even been dropping her saturations like she always used to do. Olivia seems to think that she needs just the tiny bit of oxygen that she’s getting. I can’t imagine that the oxygen is helping her out too much. My dad made the comment tonight that when he was teaching my brother to ride his bike, he would hold on to the seat. My brother kept asking, “Do you have a hold of me?” Most of the time my dad didn’t, but my brother needed that reassurance. I guess Olivia needs that reassurance as well. My day would have been a great one for the record books if it wasn’t for another incident that happened earlier. After church we went out to visit Logan’s grave. If you remember, I had gotten him a pumpkin and a scarecrow. His marker hasn’t come in yet so there was nothing else to mark his grave. When we went out there, everything was gone. Somebody took the stuff off of his grave. It’s not like a pumpkin can just blow away and someone had to have pulled the scarecrow out of the ground. Who would do something like that? We were told that the groundskeepers wouldn’t take anything from the Babyland section. I wanted it to be nice for him and now he has nothing out there . . .not even a marker (it should be in any day, though.) That was very hard for me this afternoon and I’m hoping that I’m able to find something tomorrow to put out there.