Not Gonna Smile

Because you want me to smile, I'm not going to smile.


Seriously, I'm not going to smile.


I'm gonna cry if you don't put the camera down.


Consider yourself warned.



Abigail hates the camera. She will smile until I get the camera out. Total opposite of Olivia as a baby. LOL!

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Mother Of The Year

Wow, if anyone DOESN'T deserve that title today, it's me. I got done feeding Abigail and noticed her nails were getting long. So, I cut her nails and it was uneventful. Then, I laid her down in her crib to go get her Zantac. I came back in and there was blood everywhere ( at least it seemed like it.) I freaked out and finally discovered it was coming from her finger. I had snipped her finger when I was cutting her nails!! I have never done that before! But, she wasn't crying and was smiling and bleeding everywhere. So, I tried to apply pressure while she's moving her arms everywhere. She seriously bled a lot!! Then, I realized that Olivia's band aids were too big for her little finger, so I desperately found some paper tape/bandages to use. Then, Olivia walked in and asked what was going on. Olivia cried for years when we cut her nails until we convinced her that it wouldn't hurt. So, I couldn't tell her what happened. She would be horrified! I just said that Abigail's finger was bleeding, but didn't tell her why. Luckily, she didn't ask questions. Sheesh. What a way to start the day! At least Abigail didn't cry or seem upset over it. That would have been even worse. I feel like the worst mom in the world right now though. I think I'll have Ryan cut her nails from now on.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

As a micro preemie parent, it's the little things that make me jump for joy. Olivia finally learned how to spit her toothpaste out. This is something we've worked on for a really long time. Last night she even tried mouthwash! She will also go to the bathroom in public over 50% of the time. She just doesn't like those horse shoe shaped seats and only wants the "circle potties." Every time I see that they are the wrong ones, I just grumble to myself. LOL! And I pray that the bathrooms don't have automatic flushing or hand dryers!

And, of course, she loves her piano. She sits now with a book at the piano and "reads" the music. I asked her how she knew the right notes and she explained that some are high notes and some are low notes and pointed them out. She comes up with some really great songs.

Upper GI Results

Well, results are pretty much inconclusive from Olivia's upper GI. While we were standing there, we had to wait awhile for her stomach to empty. She has a lot of symptoms of gastroparesis ( or delayed stomach emptying) yet they didn't even mention it on the report. So, I'm guessing it wasn't significant? As of right now, we are still dealing with constipation, but it has improved greatly over the past few months. She doesn't purposely hold it anymore. And reflux could be a culprit and she's on Prevacid for that. So I don't know why she eats two bites and is full or why her tummy hurts after eating or why she isn't gaining any weight whatsoever. But, please keep her in your prayers.

Monday, March 11, 2013

Abigail just loves other kids. Her cousin, Izzy, got the biggest smile out of her today. Izzy also got to feed her a bottle. Abigail is also starting to hold her own bottle which is something Olivia never did. So, I just look at both of my children in awe because of it. Not only did Olivia not use her hands much as a baby, but she almost never willingly took a bottle. I think of the early struggles that Olivia had and I'm so amazed at her now. It may have taken her longer to do things, but she got it.

Olivia also has her upper GI X-ray tomorrow morning. I'd appreciate prayers because I know Olivia is pretty nervous about it. I should know the results by tomorrow night too. Thanks.

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Abigail adores Olivia! Seriously, I walk into the room and I get a smile from Abigail. Olivia walks into the room and Abigail's entire face lights up. And Abigail will start crying in her crib and Olivia asks if she can take care of her. A few minutes later, she walks out of the room and Abigail is back to sleep. Huh? I ask how she did that and Olivia just laughs. Those two are going to be so close, I just know it. Olivia has thoroughly enjoyed getting out her old baby toys from storage and, wow, they've brought back memories. Funny how you can still remember the songs. LOL!

My Olivia

Man, I love this girl! She is at that stage where she can't tell me that she loves me enough. And she tries to find the right words, so she says things like:

My heart beats like thunder for you.

I love you with my whole life.

I love you the most much and Abigail loves you the least much. (She was trying to convince me to put Abigail in her crib and play with her instead.)

She is still struggling a bit with having a baby sibling, so I try to make her feel extra special. She looks forward to the weekend because she gets to sleep with me. We are planning a trip to the circus soon along with a vacation just the three of us. I hope both of my girls always know how loved they are.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Olivia has struggled with eating all of her life. Lately it has gotten worse and she has started gagging after eating. It's frustrating as a mom who has always known of this difficulty and yet doctors shrug it off. So we wait until her weight gain starts to be distressing and then decide to do something. Anyway, she goes in for an upper GI X-ray on Tuesday. What I believe is that she has esophageal stricture, or a narrowing of the esophagus. This can actually be caused by scar tissue due to things like a ventilator and NG tube. This would explain why she can't swallow certain things like meat and carrots. An hour later, I always discover she is still chewing on things like that. It would also explain why she tells me that she has a froggy stuck in her throat after eating and her difficulty gaining weight. Add to that some oral aversions and the fact that she never put things in her mouth as a baby and no wonder she doesn't eat. I'm slowly learning to never underestimate a mother's intuition. And it doesn't hurt that we are switching to a new doctor who listens a little better. Please keep Olivia in your prayers so that we can help her eat better, grow and continue thriving!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Today was just a fun day. . .nothing really specific, just fun. We started the morning with a puppet show for Abigail. Those two are really interacting now. It is so cute.



Abigail is really taking an interest in toys too. She loves to bat at them. I always have her firefly on the side of her crib and the first thing she does when she wakes up is play with it. At 4:30 am when she woke up, it wasn't there and she got really mad. So funny! It's back now though.


We are finally getting on somewhat of a schedule too and that has been wonderful. Abigail has no problems sleeping 6-8 hrs per night. Of course, if I went to bed sooner that would help. She's a good eater AND a good sleeper! That never happens. She does not take good naps though, just like Olivia.


She is just as cute as can be and on the verge of laughing any day. I'm so blessed with my girls.

And we had sausage and tortellini soup for dinner. I still need to do a blog post on emeals. I can't rave enough about them! After over a month of meals, there have only been 2-3 that we haven't liked.


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Bumbo

At least one child likes it. LOL!

Kitty Kelsey

Last night Olivia was having a hard time going to sleep so I let her kitty Kelsey stay in the bedroom with her. When I woke up about 1:30, I opened her bedroom door to let Kelsey out and they were snuggled up in bed together. I left the door ajar so she could leave when she needed to and that cat stayed with Olivia all night long. This made Olivia so happy this morning. However, Olivia just came to me crying asking how long Kelsey would be here. How old is she? When was she going to die? Don't know what brought this all up. She loves her kitty, though, and Kelsey loves her just the same.

Thank You

Thank you to the very special blog reader who sent me my giraffe overalls. I'm wearing them today.

Sunday, March 3, 2013

I always say that Abigail has eating days (where all she does is eat) and sleeping days (where all she does is sleep.) Today was definitely a sleeping day. How I got blessed with such amazing girls, I'll never know. While Abigail slept, I was able to spend a lot of time with Olivia playing with bath toys, Play Doh and coloring (of which she literally took an interest in yesterday.) Ryan worked all day yesterday, so he got a day to recover. And, I made delicious crock pot lasagna that even Olivia enjoyed. Pretty good day.

New Bath Toys. . .

that she doesn't want to take in the bath. She doesn't want to get them wet to risk having to throw them away too. LOL! She loves little things like this. She could look through an Oriental Trading catalog all day. I love her sweet, innocent heart.

Sisters

Logan

When I read this, it really spoke to me. But, I also thought of Olivia and how she will always know that she's growing up without her twin brother. She survived and he did not. I am so incredibly grateful for the children I have on earth with me. I couldn't survive without them. He's always with us and wants us to be happy. . .so I smiled and sighed and took a big breath.

Thursday, February 28, 2013

A few days ago, we had to throw away quite a few bath toys. My attempts to keep them clean were futile. Those darn squishy ones are impossible. Olivia was VERY attached to her bath toys. When we threw them away, I about cried because Olivia said,"Good-bye bath toys! I will never forget you." The only way we got through that sad ordeal is to order new bath toys. Well, some of them came today and you would have thought it was Christmas. She ran in to take a bath with them. LOL! And I purposely got baby ones so that they can be for Abigail too. Also, some advice about the squishy bath toys: When we get new ones, we are hot gluing the holes shut so water can't get in them. They won't squirt water anymore, but at least they won't get moldy.

Olivia also had a dr appointment today to check on her ears and her swishy noises. Her ears looked good and at this time we don't have to see an ENT. We are also switching to a new doctor because hers is resigning. Olivia met with her today and really liked her!

And Abigail wore her first pair of blue jeans today. They are also Olivia's first pair. :)

Just Pictures

Monday, February 25, 2013

I have a lot of cute Olivia stories today. First, let me say that Olivia's cousin, Izzy, has always called my dad Papa Cars because his favorite movie is Cars ( and he works in an auto repair shop.) So, story # 1:

Olivia has a teddy bear named William. Well, it was mine that Ryan bought me after we got engaged and then he lived about 1.5 hours away for the last three semesters of college. Olivia and I were talking about how that is Ryan's middle name and it was also Logan's middle name. Then, I asked her if she knew that it was Grandpa Glunt's first name.

She said," I thought his name was Bill?"

So, then I asked what Grandma Glunt's first name was.

"Mary," she said.

And what about Grandma Sailing?

"Pat."

And Grandpa Sailing? We were on a roll. But, she looked stumped for a bit and then said, "Cars?" Haha! Cracked me up.

Story #2:

We were sitting on the couch this morning and I have a plant that I bought in February 2001 when I moved out into my first apartment. Her name is Hilga. She asked why I named my plant. LOL. I explained that plants were living things. We went on to talk about how plants need water and sunlight to survive. This afternoon I walked by her room to find a fake plant by her window. Aw, she must have realized it wasn't getting any sun. I never did check to see if she watered it. Next lesson will be the difference between real and artificial plants.

The second picture just shows my new free car seat canopy. I only paid shipping on it. Love it!

More Snow

Yep, you guessed it. Another snow day today and my sissy is out of school. I don't know what all this talk is about playing in the snow. I can't think of anything more enjoyable than a nice warm bath!

-Abigail

Back In The Day

Here is our snow igloo from Feb 1983. I realized I was five, just like Olivia. So fun!

Another Fun Snow Day

One of my fondest snow memories growing up was the igloo that my dad built us in the backyard. Even our dog enjoyed it! Well, today my dad built an igloo for his granddaughters. They loved it! Too bad Abigail is too young to enjoy it.

My 1 Lb Miracle Enjoying the Snow

Sorry this isn't working. I'll get it reposted tomorrow.

So Fun Snow Day

Great, great snow day today. Olivia and Ryan went out after lunch and she had the time of her life. She just kept saying,"This is the life!" I have a cute sledding video that I'll try to get posted later. And it's rumored that we might get another foot of snow on Sun/Mon. Wow, I really wish I owned a pair of snow boots.

Not So Fun Snow Day

I'm so frustrated today. We got over 14 inches of snow (second most snow fall on record here ) and I was inside with a sweet baby screaming in pain. Olivia should have been outside having fun and making memories. At least there is always tomorrow. Ryan had to work (from home at least) and I couldn't put Abigail down. I literally stood for hours with her singing Rockin' Robin. For some reason that's the only song I found that soothed her. LOL! I don't know what's wrong. I had continued breastfeeding (and got my supply up) and barely supplemented with regular Similac because I had really thought my antibiotic was causing the problem. That was a mistake. We have her back on Alimentum only. She refuses the powdered kind, so we have to get the ready to feed kind. Maybe it is a dairy allergy or maybe it is reflux. You can hear something coming up right before she cries. And the more she cries, the worse it is. She's on Zantac, but it hasn't been weight adjusted and honestly, it did nothing for Olivia. She needed Prilosec or Prevacid. Abigail has a 99.5 temp and has barely slept all day, so maybe she has a touch of something (although they tell me a rectal temp isn't a fever until 100.4.) She is miserable! I feel so bad for her and so bad for Olivia as I know she hasn't had a fun day. Please pray that we figure out what is going on! I just need answers. :(

Looks like tomorrow is snow day #3, so maybe it will be better.